20

In a way it felt like deja vu, as if I had already turned 20 and the well-wishes and celebration had been long overdue. Of course they say that age is only a number, but for some reason I had already stopped thinking/feeling that I was 19, ages before my birthday had arrived. Truth be told, there were more than a few moments in 2012 in which I was trying to recall how old I was. So, no, I don’t feel older nor do I feel any wiser — feels like, things have reached a plateau mentally and are going to stay this way for a while.

Regardless, thank you everyone who made my birthday better! A lot of the wishes I received (especially the non-Facebook ones) made me smile. And especially to QY & E, thank you for the effort put in as well as the present!! :)

Moving on…

It was during the finals prep period that I had a moment of clarity about a certain issue I had been troubling over (mostly because I was procrastinating by indulging in deeeep introspection lolol), and I am so glad that the result is a peace of mind — something I have been searching for in vain for a long time. I am so much clearer about what matters to me now, who I am (which is saying a lot considering the ‘existential’ funk I was in previously), and what I should be pursuing at this stage of my life. Gone is one of my biggest internal conflicts. I won’t state explicitly what it is, but let’s just say that this quote from Mitch Albom’s Tuesdays with Morrie“I like myself better when I’m with you.” is and will no longer be relevant to me.

*Sigh of contentment*

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Before I end this post:

Where can I find someone to sing (record) this with me? :/

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